borealis.

[aravelle]

 Lucky me, about 70% on my way to a breakdown because I want to see E again. I'm already shaking some. She's going to make me feel greedy and rude and intrusive and like I am forcing her into it. I feel abused, when really we're just so complicated. She's just wired a certain way that fits another era better, it seems. It doesn't fit 2013 Southern California, or our lifestyle. We just have a big house and a lot of animals and she doesn't feel like she has much control over her life, so she gets more controlling with me, but not like, INSANELY controlling? Just... bad controlling. Enough to suffocate fragile flower me, in all of my sensitive glory.