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aravelleI don't want to become one of this world's monsters. I would rather become something wild and feared, something abnormal, before I become anything like them.
I refuse to let my career consume me. I want to consume my career. I won't stand to see myself lose myself, my identity, just to become a drone to survive. I refuse to break every childish bone in my body. I will bend, but not break. I refuse to sabotage my mental health, to be one of "them". I don't know if I can work 9-5, wake up at 8, and be in bed by 11. I don't think I'm physically or mentally wired for it.
Maybe anxiety isn't such a bad thing, because it'll inadvertently lead me onto a path that will make me happier. Maybe it'll keep me from being a full time drone. I dunno. We will see.
I refuse to let my career consume me. I want to consume my career. I won't stand to see myself lose myself, my identity, just to become a drone to survive. I refuse to break every childish bone in my body. I will bend, but not break. I refuse to sabotage my mental health, to be one of "them". I don't know if I can work 9-5, wake up at 8, and be in bed by 11. I don't think I'm physically or mentally wired for it.
Maybe anxiety isn't such a bad thing, because it'll inadvertently lead me onto a path that will make me happier. Maybe it'll keep me from being a full time drone. I dunno. We will see.
