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aravelle[triggers galore]
How dare you. How dare you, making me have to go through the details of my assaults, to justify my anxiety to you. You don't even know that I've been depressed, you don't even know how I've hurt myself and been suicidal. I thought you were supposed to support me. I thought I could trust you. But instead, you called me weak, for being damaged. For something I can't control.
I'm shaking I'm so upset. You're my sister, not my mother. My mother is supposed to be the closest thing there is to the enemy. But this just proves, that this family thinks that I am weak and dramatic... when they don't know how many times I've had to be strong. It hurts, a lot. I feel like I can't -and don't- have a strong familial unit. That there's no loving bond. If it's there at all, it's weak. I wish I could at least have a decent relationship with my mom. It's bad enough I already lost my dad. I feel like E and I's little family has more love and stability than the one I live with, and that hurts... a lot. I haven't even known her for a year. I've known my sister all her life, all her 13 years, and my mom, my whole life. I wish I didn't care at all.
How dare you. How dare you, making me have to go through the details of my assaults, to justify my anxiety to you. You don't even know that I've been depressed, you don't even know how I've hurt myself and been suicidal. I thought you were supposed to support me. I thought I could trust you. But instead, you called me weak, for being damaged. For something I can't control.
I'm shaking I'm so upset. You're my sister, not my mother. My mother is supposed to be the closest thing there is to the enemy. But this just proves, that this family thinks that I am weak and dramatic... when they don't know how many times I've had to be strong. It hurts, a lot. I feel like I can't -and don't- have a strong familial unit. That there's no loving bond. If it's there at all, it's weak. I wish I could at least have a decent relationship with my mom. It's bad enough I already lost my dad. I feel like E and I's little family has more love and stability than the one I live with, and that hurts... a lot. I haven't even known her for a year. I've known my sister all her life, all her 13 years, and my mom, my whole life. I wish I didn't care at all.
